Recently God has really started to challenge me in different ways and has been teaching me to push past my comfort zone and let go of certain things. Fears mostly. And trying to control things. God has been teaching me this same lesson for years. Time and time again he is having to show me this. You would think I would get this by now. But I guess I'm a slow learner.
Am I the only one who is relived reading about the Israelite's in the Bible? God was with them and guiding them and teaching them constantly and showing his power over and over again and yet they still weren't getting it. I am exactly like that! But God still loved them and blessed them and stayed with them just like he will with you and I. That's really reassuring to me.
Anyway! Back to my story! I am really having to learn to be open to new things and to stop trying to plan everything out. To let things happen and just go where God calls me and do what God tells me to. To me that's very scary! I like knowing what I'll be doing next week, next month, next year. All of that! I plan ahead! Not usually about little things like taking short trips or going to the store or vising friends. I'm actually very laid back in that aspect. There is nothing wrong with having plans. Or even thinking ahead! But there is a problem with worrying and having to have the comfort of having it all figured out. That is something that God is working on with me. I need to stop worrying and just do what God has called me to and leave the rest to him.
Philippians 4:6 clearly says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
That's pretty clear and straightforward about what I need to do. Stop worrying and give it to God. If it's that simple why is it sometimes so hard to do?
So I am really working on that with my new job, my school, and especially with transferring in the fall! I only know two people there! I'm an adventurous person but that still terrifies me! And just applying this to life in general.
On another note. This is actually what I sat down to write but I ended up on that little rant about how I need to let God take control. Now here was my intentions for a post.
Do you have people in your life that just ooze God's love? Like those men and women who just shine the grace of God everywhere they go! They live out Jesus' calling and they just seem to be living in the word and Holy Spirit no matter what! Even when life has been hard they still show God's love! And I don't mean people who are constantly shoving scripture down your throat. (I know some of them too.) But I mean people who just whole heartily love, seek, and serve Christ in every aspect of their life!
I think we all have at least one person who comes to mind.
But I realized recently that instead of being inspired by these people in my life, I put them on a sort of mental pedestal as "better Christians" and that their way of life is just unobtainable. I act like they are just born with such Godly character instead of allowing that to inspire me to build my relationship with God to be that strong too. It's not like they are magically more Christ like! They worship the same God as me and have the same Bible as me so why can't I strive to have their kind of faith?! I think for me that really ties into the first part of this post. With these people in my life I really should be inspired to be more like that! Instead, I do nothing.
I'm not saying that I'm not a woman of God just because I don't ooze his love like they do. I truly believe that any woman who has started a relationship with God is a woman of God! Same with men! Romans 10:13 says "For everyone who calls upon the name of the Lord will be saved." So yes, I am a woman of God. And I do seek God and I do read his word but I'm not always seeking to imitate Christ like I should. I want God to make me into a woman that is like the women who I adore for their faith! I don't think that this process will be easy. But I think it will be worth it.
So I think this post was more for me to get some stuff out. More like telling you my goals so maybe I'll stay accountable. If anyone actually reads this please leave a comment! I would love to know how you strive to be a man or woman of God or someone in your life that is the example for you! :) Let me know!
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